Today is THE day!

Today is the day that I have been tumor free for four years now! My life saving surgery four years ago was scheduled to be 13 hours long with a 50 percent chance of living through it. Im alive today because my time is not up. God has a plan and a purpose for my lfie that Im just now starting to figure out. Four years ago I wish I had the patience, and sunny disposition that I have now. I do realize that the process of getting older, gaining experience, and truly becoming a woman of GOD has made this possible.

Going back four years I remember the night before my surgery like it was yesterday. Emily was only 4 months old. I was in a hotel room near the hospital in Seattle where my surgery was to take place. I was up all night crying in fear of not being able to see Emily ever again. I can remember this as my most fearful moment to this day. I did not sleep that night...

Here it is 11:30 pm four years later on the same day I lived in so much fear...... I canno't sleep again tonight because I have drank too much mountain dew :) GOD IS GOOD!

Fear is something that paralizes you. Holds you back from feeling any other great emotion in your life. Living in Fear is needless and worthless...

Im so very thankful that I know GOD today and no longer have to live with my disease in fear. I find beauty in everything around me. I find a way to smile even when I know there is nothing I can do to control my situation. This is a beautiful reality..... I dont ever want to live any other way.

5 years here I come!