One More Day

ONE MORE DAY

I refuse to lay down and give up on LIFE
All I want is to live and to be a great WIFE

A mother a friend a daughter an INSPIRATION

A Nobel peace prize I should win for DETERMINATION



What a hell I live through each and every DAY

Knowing that my tomorrow could be taken AWAY

What a helpless feeling it is to FEEL
That hospital macaroni and cheese could be my last MEAL



What a heaven sent gift it is to FEEL

The feeling of love that is oh so REAL

For someone to accept you for all that you ARE

To look so deep within and pay no mind to a SCAR



My strength comes from BELIEVING

My fear comes from LOSS

I want To be as fearless as Jesus dieing on the CROSS

There is so much out there I want to SEE

So many memories left for Emily and ME



What happens next is out of my CONTROL

With grace and acceptance I plan to UPHOLD

To love is to live and to believe is the WAY

God give me the strength to live ONE MORE DAY

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Since I wrote this poem in August 2009 my life has changed dramatically. My health is stable, my daughter is intelligent and loving, and my sweet fiance Ryan could never be more understanding and loving at times I need it the most.

When I wrote this in August 09' things for me were uncertain. All I knew was I fell so deeply in love with a man that fit me, complimented me, and cared for me in a way I have never been cared for. Who would want to lose that? The best example I can give you is being 7 years old and having your parents tell you that your moving to Disneyland, to only find out that they were lying the whole time.........
I feared so much that I was going to finally feel complete and loved for who I was to only be taken out of this world and not be able to experience this beautiful reality.

I was just cleaning out my Microsoft Word Documents and before I deleted this poem from August I wanted to post it , to remember where I came from and where I am today.  Things are brighter than ever. Fear is not an option. As a family endless Love is what we got. Lots and lots of  endless beautiful love.

(Thank you Ryan Verboomen for making my little girl wishes of a fairytale life come true) I love you forever!